Saturday, February 28, 2009

Anal Training


Mistress,

Even More delayed weekend fun.


~ Anal Training, to be done all in one shot.

This is going to be fun. Lets start this with picture of picture of my ass before training.




~ Fill your ass with your small plug for 30 minutes

No problems with this one. Such a small plug. I just inserted it and went doing other things I had to do.


And time was up almost too soon. So I just removed it and that was it. And my ass didn't really felt used after that one.


~ Change that out for your Medium Plug for 1 hour

Back to inserting things in my ass. Medium plug isn't very big either and it went in without any trouble.




This should have been very easy hour too. But it wasn't for some reason I felt discomfort from the beginning. Not pain but it wasn't fun either. And that made me nervous. This should have been still more like warm up than actual training. It was a long hour and I had to concentrate to being able to make it. But I wasn't really worried yet. It was only discomfort not pain.

Finally hour was up and no pain when removing plug. And that discomfort disappeared also immediately so there was no reason to quit training.


~ Change that out for your smaller Dildo for 1 hour (fucking slowly 100 times during this time)

I'm so glad that you said smaller, not small. It only about 6 inches, but it not 'small' for me. But not very big either. Inserting it was easy and painless process.




But then that discomfort started again. No pain, just discomfort. I can't really explain how it felt. It was little strange feeling, no pain, but feeling I have not had before. First half of the hour went mostly just me concentrating of keeping it in. Or maybe more 'not taking it out'. And worrying about that fucking. I was sure that I just can't do it. That I really can't.

But when time went by and it was getting close to decide whatever I can even try to fuck myself with that dildo, something happened. First I was starting to feel that I might at least try it and little after that I just went to do it. Although I wasn't sure if I can really do it I started it.

And I did it all. It was not fun at all, but this was training and I don't give up easily. But I have to say that I was fucking happy that it wasn't more than just 100 times.



Even more uncomfortable feeling after that, but still no pain. Funny. I really don't know what it was.

Removing that dildo was a relief and there was no pain at all.


And my ass was just fine after that part of training.


~ Change that out for your larger Dildo...try your best without harming yourself to get it to fit. When you do, leave it in for 30 minutes and then try slowly fucking yourself with it.

Now this was part I wasn't waiting eagerly. I have tried that larger (about 8 inch) dildo and it was just too big. My confidence wasn't really high at this point, but what else could I do than try it. And somewhere deep in my mind was a little 'what if' feeling. It would been so nice to be able to use that fucking big dildo.

But no. Inserting it hurt. Not like damaging my ass pain, but it really hurt. But I did get it in a little.



But that pain was too much for me. It was very clear that my asshole is not ready to be stretched that wide now so I took it out even before full minute has gone. There was too reasons for that, it really felt too big, and pain was also too hard. Too hard that to feel safe (it didn't felt dangerous though) and it also was too severe pain for me. As you know I don't take risks so it didn't feel like having failed in training. It just showed that more training is needed.

And after I took it out all the pain went away immediately. So I decided to try that big monster plug too, but I really knew that I can't get it in. And because of that my heart wasn't really in it anymore. But I did try it but there was that too stretched pain again, so I stopped pushing it before it was all in. And trust me. There's no way I could have that one inside me now. It is simple too wide.

Thank you for this training Mistress.

sam

Friday, February 27, 2009

313 Kisses


Mistress,

Delayed Weekend Fun continues with kisses.










I love posing for you, but I ain't no model and really don't know how to pose well.














Either I'm not a good photographer, those papers are not tilted in reality, my camera just does tricks for me.















But I try my best for you...
























...and love every minute of it.









Thank you Mistress.


sam

Monday, February 23, 2009

5 in2kink's tasks I would like to do

Little update: I had terrible back pain for a week. That's why it's been quiet here.

But now I can continue doing things. Slowly and carefully first, but soon I can leave that behind too. And it's about time. I've been missing being naughty horny slut for you.

Mistress, here's 5 in2kink's task I would like to do. They are in alphabetical order and there are more than these 5 task I would like to perform. But I had to choose something.

1. Extreme Anal Penetration:

Quite obvious reasons. Not so 'extreme' for me, but should be fun.

2. House of Pain - House of pleasure

Anal, spanking, whipping. Do I really need to say anything :)

3. My Sexy Panty Slut

3 days of horny, frustrated sluttynes. Mmmm

4. Tailor made

5. The Seventh Seal

Last two: I love surprises. And that little fear of not knowing what it is going to be.

sam

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Week one of edge training is over (for now)

Mistress,

Frustrating training continues.

Day 6

Dice hates me. 1 try again. Not much to tell about that. Disappointing. From my email to Mistress next day: "P.S. No luck with edge yesterday. But today, I will fucking show that cock who's boss."

Well, Mistress is boss, but when training it should be me, not my cock.

Day 7

Do I even have to say that I throw once again 1. I felt little pissed off with that. But even more I felt frustrated so I had to do little begging by email:

"P.S. Today's dice results are.

Edge thing: 5. This is so fucking weird. One fucking try again. May
I please do something for you to get second try? Please Mistress. I'm
so fucking frustrated that I just want to cum. And two chances are
better than one. Even with risk of two ruined ones. Pretty please. Let
me have second try too. Please. "

Mistress found my begging amusing and I gave two changes. For both Friday and Saturday, but I had to attach 6 clothespins on my body and take pictures.

Note about pics. I took those in living room and after that went back to bedroom for edge training. Could really try to edge and take pictures at same time.

1st try

I fucking show that cock who's boss. What a fucking relief. And pleasure. So nice to have real orgasm. So pleasurable. So something. I loved that moment when I saw that 2 minutes was gone and there was no more holding or hands of too soon thing. Thank you for this orgasm Mistress.

I don't really think that clothespins on balls helped. More like I was so determined and horny and... ...that they didn't hurt so much this time.







2nd try

Back where I started. Clothespins on inner thighs hurt too much. I mean too much to adjust stroking to stay on edge. I would have dropped off if I had tried. So 45 seconds and hands off.
















Day 8

Final day for week one. Although I'm kinda sure that I have to do this first week again. It hasn't been very successful.

Anyways. Not so frustrated today. Maybe it's knowing that this ends today. Even knowing that there is no guarantee that I succeed to cum or that Mistress would let me cum after week is over, it's a relief.




1st try

Weekend fun day so I wear something you sent me all day. Clothespins on nipples and both side of them under cups of that lovely negligee. So nice, but painful feeling. Every movement hurts a little when clothespins move too.

No luck this time. But close. Little less than 25 second to go when i had to give up. Frustration came back. Bloody hell. Now I can't stop thinking that this is week ONE. Oh no.

2nd try

No picture. Don't know what happened. It just wasn't there. But there was clothespins. 1 on every fingertip of left hand and last one on tongue. That last one ruined it. And my orgasm too. Hurted too much and I couldn't concentrate. Ruined one after just 36 seconds. Didn't like to end this so badly, but there was nothing I could do anymore. So that was it. And I can tell you Mistress that clothespins are not good idea when training. Although I had that only successful orgasm while I had clothespins on my balls, I think it was despite of them, not because of them.

What a week this has been. So frustrating and left me so horny. I've been leaking all week. At home, at work, at stores. Everywhere. All the time. Feeling horny, frustrated, satisfied, disappointed an so on. Tell me a feeling and I had it. But in some way I loved this week. Not edging or having ruined orgasms. I don't like those. But I love so much trying new and hard things for you. Well, not trying. This wasn't really trying anything. But trying to learn staying on edge so you could enjoy keeping me there later. That gave me so nice feeling. And I loved it.

Thank you Mistress

I love you.

sam

Spanking (day 17 - back of thighs)


Mistress,

And last one for that day was 45 to back of thighs.
Thank you very much for this ruler test session.
It was painfull, but very much fun.

sam


Spanking (day 17 - breasts)


Mistress,

So much fun for one day. 33 this time.

Thank you.

sam



Spanking (day 17 - feet)


Mistress,

Here we go again. 39 to bottom of feet. Stings, but don't hurt.

sam


Spanking (day 17 - balls)


Mistress,

And next was balls. Your favorite. 38 hits. Fuck, that hurts.

sam




Spanking (day 17 - inner thighs)


Mistress,

Next one was 40 hits in my already sore and little bruised inner thighs.
Fun.

Thank you Mistress.

sam

Spanking (day 17 - ass)



Mistress,

Testing new ruler as you wanted. First is 43 hits to ass. I found out that I can hit harder than this on ass. Didn't hurt much. Took it easy because I didn't have any experience with that ruler before.

sam


Friday, February 13, 2009

Working Fun

Fun day at work.

Mistress,

Wednesday night at work I had a little extra time and only few coworkers there. So I sent an email to Mistress and asked if she wanted me to do something for here there.

And she did. She wanted me to out 13 paper clips somewhere on my body. And I did. Attached them to mu balls and foreskin. Felt a little funny and it felt that few of them got loose almost immediately because they are quite small ones and little difficult to attach to balls. Hmm. Wonder what they will think if I will ask for bigger paper clips. Size that's suitable for balls.

Anyways, they stayed on until day was over and after removing them I just left them on my desk for later use.

And that later use is that chain. After little misunderstanding at morning (I'm not a morning person) I got it right. Attached that chain inside those panties you wanted me to wear at work. And it felt nice. If not thinking few painful moments when that pinch me or felt like dull needle on my balls, it was fun. And it remind me of you most of the time. And how could it not. There I was, having paper clip chain against my genitals inside my thong while working.

Oh and it made me also keep my legs open whole day. Not wide open, but just that much that helped to avoid my jeans pushing them against my genitals in painful way.

Corners.

9+ something AM. (sorry, but as you know, this one was weird morning, took long time to woke up)
Staircase of my building. Nervous.

11:55 am. At work. Toilet. Alone. Easy.

01:10 pm At work. Toilet, stall. Very easy.

01:5? pm At work. Storage room. Nervous.

03:44 pm At work. Corridor. Going out. Very nervous.

4:20 pm Out. Buss stop (the kind with shelter) easy.

5:21 pm At work. Corner near notice board. Nervous.

6:2? On my way to x stopped to store to buy cigarettes. Corner of shelves (thank you for the tip).
Easy.

7:2? pm X. Stall at toilet. Easy.

21:22 pm Back at work. Alone. Conference room. Very easy.

21:4? pm. On my way out. Empty lounge. Easy.

21:5? pm. Buss stop again. Little nervous.

22:3? pm. Same place where this started. Easy and relief.

I don't know if you have noticed on pictures or when I'm on cam that i don't wear wrist watch.
That makes those times little imprecise sometime.

It was fun. New kind of fun for me. Little nervous one too. But fun.

Thank you Mistress.

sam

Edge training continues

Mistress,

Frustrating edge training continues.

After first three days we had a little chat and a little adjustment was made. So now on I have to stay withing 5 seconds of cumming while edging. Sounds much easier, but I'm already so fucking horny that it's not. I just wish we had started it like that. I would have at least two successful edge session that way. Well, if we leave out that fucking moment of ruining that orgasm, this has been fun. Frustrating, but fun. Most of the time.

Day 4.

1 try only. What is it with dice? This is ridiculous.

And that edge. Went better, but now I was adjusting it to that new five second rule. 1:37. And that's it. No fucking satisfaction for me me. I hate this. I just hate it. We'll little later it's more fun again,

but right there on edge, realizing that it's not this one it's fucking torture.

Day 5

:( I don't want to write this. This sucks. I mean my ability to to stay on edge suck. This feeling sucks. Dices suck big time.

That was right after one more ruined orgasm. It didn't take long to feel better. But I do wonder why I have such a bad luck with dice. Or is it a good luck. I don't know. But this is so frustrating.

And little after that. Blah. I don't care anymore. I's starting to be very clear to me that we might have to redo week one. This hasn't really be a success. But what the hell. I can do this again if needed. And maybe thinking like that take a little pressure off.

Thank you Mistress.

sam

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Weekend Fun

My Slut....



You may start all of this AFTER you have your blog current with everything on your Friday.



This is a naughty list for you this weekend....



~ Anal Training, to be done all in one shot.

~ Fill your ass with your small plug for 30 minutes

~ Change that out for your Medium Plug for 1 hour

~ Change that out for your smaller Dildo for 1 hour (fucking slowly 100 times during this time)

~ Change that out for your larger Dildo...try your best without harming yourself to get it to fit. When you do, leave it in for 30 minutes and then try slowly fucking yourself with it.

~ If not too sore by now, try your largest plug and see if it is ready to pop i place yet.

~ If your ass is not too sore and you have another day left, you may repeat this, but use your judgement.



~ I want 13 pictures taken for me this weekend. Be Creative.



~ At all times in your apartment you must be wearing something that I sent you that is clothing...whether it be your nighties or your panties, or both.



~ Continue your spankings this weekend.



~ I want you to tape a large area of white paper on a wall where you don't mind having that wall in a picture. Make this a comfortable height that you can stand. I want you to plant 313 kisses on this through the weekend. I want them with your red lipstick of course my slut. I want a picture of you standing in front of this kiss collage, wearing your red heart panties and your heels....and that white shall that goes with your school girl uniform, and your jewelry and nothing else. That will be so sexy.



~ I want you to look through the ORG tasks at the ones posted by in2kink and select your top 5 of his you would like to do, and make a post here on your blog linking them for me. I will choose one or two for you to request soon.



~ Now....Saturday is your last day of edge training...will you be successful this first week of trying? Or not? We will see. But I do know you are trying your best...so I want you to post your final edge report on Saturday before you go to bed, and tell me how the week went. Then you may beg me to let you cum. I know you won't want to procrastinate on this after a week of ruined orgasms...so don't. You will ask me nicely and offer to me how you wish to cum for me. You can ask to cum once, or many times...but be specific. Don't worry about impressing me, just please me.

I will watch your video on Sunday that you posted tonight.
Mistress

Spankings (day 16)

Mistress,

118 hits to inner thighs with belt. Trying to avoid long lasting marks, but making it sting enough.

Not hard hits, but I think I got it. No bad bruises and nice burning feeling afterwards. And little soreness next morning.

sam


Edge Training Starts

First three days of edge training.

Mistress,

Now this is interesting, you love to keep your slut on edge and I,
while I can edge without too much problem, can't stay on edge. I just
can't. I either go over it or drop out of it. And because no dropped
off this time, it's going to be fucking many ruined orgasm this week.
And yes, I notice that there reads week one, so I afraid that I'm
going to have very frustrated future. Unless I manage somehow to learn
how to stay on edge.

Oh well, at least I'm going to one fucking horny slut for you. And
that part I love.

Day 1

1 try for today.

I was very tired and horny. So this wasn't even much of a training. 37
fucking seconds and there it was. First ruined orgasm for you. It's so
fucking hard to remove hands early enough it to be really ruined
orgasm. But what choice do I had. None.

I was actually so tired that I didn't even clean myself off after that
cum dribble, yep, dribble out of my cock. I just started to sleep.

Not very impressive start, but hey, at least I didn't screw it up.

Day 2

Again just one try.

Fucking disaster. Impressive 15 seconds and there I go again. :( Oh,
boy. Other one ruined for you.
Felt little 'down' after this one. Wondering if I'm ever gonna make
even that two minutes. Or have real orgasm during this week. But that
feeling went away quickly and I was back to feeling frustrated horny
slut for you again.

Day 3

1 again, but Mistress gave me opportunity to try 3 times. But nothing
comes free so there I was on cam for Mistress:

Mistress (9.2.2009 0:17:52): i can see you now
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:17:55): take your shirt off
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:18:07): good slut
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:18:10): are you nervous?
Slut (9.2.2009 0:18:19): little
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:18:38): you trust me though?
Slut (9.2.2009 0:18:29): Yes.
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:18:55): good take that cum cube and rub it on
your nipples for 13 seconds each
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:19:43): very nice slut
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:19:46): how does that feel?
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:20:07): mmmm sexy
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:20:13): now rub it around your belly
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:20:34): like cum?
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:20:51): i know my slut does not like the smell,
but you are being very good
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:20:56): rub the last bit in your beard
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:21:24): mmmm very obedient slut
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:21:31):
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:21:34): you are so cute and sexy
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:21:40): now...had you already showered tonight?
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:21:53): well then it stays on you till your shower
Mistress (9.2.2009 0:22:17): good slut...and now you may try 3 times
on monday to edge for me 2 minutes

It was actually fun. Messy and smelly, but fun. Because I knew you loved it.

And a little excerpt from my email to Mistress:

"Now this training is getting in to me. One of those 3 tryis is better
be success or this slut is going nuts.

I'm serious, I fucking leak very much and am really really horny right now."

1. try:

At morning. Very fucking horny, but I almost made it. Have no idea
how, but I just stayed on edge.
Or maybe I do know how. It seems that this is not only mental, but
also a little technical thing.
Only fucking 15 seconds more and I would have real orgasm. SO damn
close, but I can't take any risks. Feeling so fucking horny.

2. try:

Harder. Not so easy to reach edge this time. And that means that
staying there was also more difficult. Without dropping off edge that
is. So not much able to anything else than hope that I will last two
minutes. And of course I didn't. Only able to stay there less than
minute. And then, that fucking dribbling. I hate that. And there seems
to be little lack of cum too. Not much came out this time.
Frustrating.

3. try.

Wanted to try something different so I tied my balls for this time.
Turned me on. Easier to reach edge and stay there. 1:34, so again very
fucking frustrated slut. Who the hell invented ruined orgasm. I want
to strangle that person. I just can't stand this. Most difficult part
is to take hands off early enough. And not to do anything that would
'help' that orgasm.

Thank you Mistress for training me.

sam

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Work Time Fun For my Slut

My Slut...on your Thursday while at work...I want you to have a bit of fun for me. I want you to wear that thong I sent to you....the blue one that is very skimpy and see through with the butterflies on it.

I want you to have your bracelet with you at work...and to spend at least 13 minutes of your day, at your desk, wearing it for me. You can do this in any time increment you need to, to please me and do this for me.

I want to to take those 13 paperclips and make a paperclip chain with them...and then place that chain into the front of your thong so that you feel that you are bound for me....without actually being bound. I want you to feel that metal against you and think of me. Do this as soon as you are able and leave it there all day for me and bring this chain home with you. I want a picture of it posted to this blog...when you tell about this fun you have had.

And then finally...I want you to spend 13 minutes in corners for me on your Thursday...but they cannot be in your home. You can use ones at work....if you are discreet...or other public places. It does not have to be a literal corner, it could be where there is a corner of shelves in a store...etc. Be creative. I know you hate the corner, but 1 minute at a time, won't be bad at all. So to be clear, 1 minute in 13 corners. You may not repeat the same corner more than 2 times total. I want you to write down the time and brief description of the corner that you were in.

This is enough I think...to keep you somewhat busy, but also thinking of me all day :).

Love you.
Mistress

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Spankings (days 13 to 15)


Mistress,

Spanking bottom of my feet went well, although using book was little weird. And spanking my breast; if I had breasts, oh boy how much fun that would be. Now it's mostly hitting my nipples that feels nice. But can't hit just nipples so other hits goes are around them. And that feels mostly like slaps on my chest. Doesn't feel very much of 'spanking', but isn't OK.

And video if from day 15. 78 to back of thighs.

sam


Thank you for first two months Mistress

Thank you for anal training Mistress.

Mistress,

This time my way of keeping notes bites me on the ass big time. It's difficult to write in details when your notes says something like this: Monday, 2 hour small, 45 min small, 3 hour medium and so on. So that has to change. And I already have a new notebook to keep with myself all the time. Now I just have to remember to use it properly.

Anyways, I can still tell you something about using plugs. All hours done. Going from easy start with small plug to smaller dildo and back to small plug.

Over 8 hours a day, every day for a week. So I started really easy thinking that I will go towards that big dildo or even (slut can dream) that fucking huge plug. And I did. Everything went like it should until all those hours started to feel. That happened about middle of task. I was getting little sore. Not bleeding or not even pain. Just soreness. But still 30+ hours to go. So no more dreaming of big dildo or huge plug. Back to basics. Having just small or medium plug in my ass. Everywhere.

At home. At work. At shop. Half of my waking hours I was plugged. I though of trying to sleep plugged, but what if that plug slips out at nigh. How do I know when it happened. How long it was in. So I didn't sleep plugged.

And it did go well. Soreness came and went away. Few times, but never turned to pain so I was OK.

And there was no need for baby carrots. Not that I have anything against putting baby carrot in my ass, but I still prefer actual plug.

And how did this training make me feel. Wonderful. Most of the time. There was that little worried feeling when I first felt soreness, but that went away. And those moments when I felt like plug was slipping out in shop or sitting on it at work and talking co-worker. Hmm. Actually that last one was a good feeling. I knew that it can't be noticed and there's no risk of exposure, but it still was a little nervous thing. And very fucking slutty.

And I did think of you a lot. How much I love being your anal slut in training. How much I love being yours. How can I be better submissive or please you even more (but no planning this time, not anymore).

I appreciate so much of all the things you give me. Joy, trust, confidence, everything.

That little mishap (I hope you don't mind me calling it that) made me really realize how lucky I am. To have you as my Mistress. And how important thing communication is. And just about anything. 62 hours is a long time. To be plugged. To think. And I'm sure that we will both benefit from this training later.

Thank you Mistress.

sam


Words for Mistress


Mistress,

Today I was last one at office and Mistress wanted me to write 13 words on my chest. Words that describe why I love being hers. Words she makes me feel within our relationship.

It's a little funny how some words can have positive or negative meaning depending of nature (vanilla, bdsm and so on) of relationship.

sam

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Reward from Mistress

Mistress,

After I performed emotionally hard task at Org, Mistress decided that I've earned a little reward.
For doing that task and everything (with one exception) she has asked .
And after little conversation where Mistress stated to me that she wanted this to be something special. Not something I would want to do to her, but something I had hoped, but didn't think that she

would do. And she will consider it.

Wow. How often something like this happens. But thinking what I would love was easy.
Seeing Mistress having orgasm would be dream coming true. Now I just had to wait until next day to see that. If nothing unexpected happens. And luck was on my side. Nothing happens and next day we

were both on line and Mistress invited me to see her web cam.

And there she was. Beautiful and lovely Mistress laying on her bed. First we just chatted few minutes and then my reward started.

Mistress and magic wand on bed. And very fucking horny slut watching. I haven't yet saw nothing, but I already loved it. It felt like such a big reward. Watching your Mistress masturbating.

And then she started. Listening little yelps that grow to moans. Watching her face turning little red when she get closer to orgasm. Hearing wand. And hearing her. Being quiet myself. Partly because I

didn't know if she wanted me to be quiet and partly because it felt right. Just watching her enjoying.
Not wanting to distract her pleasure.

And then she came. And I felt so happy. For her having pleasure and because it looked so fucking hot.

Little break and she started again. Now that was more than I had dreamed. This time I was able to think, maybe not think but more like feel, more while watching. I felt very lucky to have such a

wonderful Mistress. I know from my own experience that it's not very easy to masturbate on cam while someone else is watching. It makes you, or me at least, feel very vulnerable. And being able to

witness her doing it was for me very big sign that she feel comfortable with me and that she trust me. And that is something I want. And then she came again.

And again, and again. Five times. Making me so horny and happy.

I loved your reward Mistress. Not just watching it, but feelings it gave me.

Thank you for this Mistress.

sam

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Edge Training Week One, For My Slut

My Slut,

As you know, your Mistress loves the edge. For one thing, the edge is the feeling that feels just about as nice as the orgasm, but when you can make the edge last longer, cumming can be even more enjoyable. I love the edge, and I also love a submissive on the edge for me...so of course I want MY slut on the edge for me. I love how someone changes when they are on the edge, struggling to hold it, how much more intense begging can get, how much more they moan and shake and tremble for me.

I want my slut to be able to start holding an edge for my pleasure.

So....for this week, Saturday to Saturday, 8 days, you are going to be in edge training.

Each day you will roll 1 die. If it is an even number you will be attempting two edges and orgasms. If it is an odd number you will attempt 1 edge and orgasm.

You can still touch as much as you wish during the days, but bear in mind I don't want your cock getting too sore to play with. When you are ready to attempt this, you will get yourself to the edge. Now, once you are on edge, you are going to try to get your mind and your cock to listen to you, and for you to remain right there on the edge for 2 minutes. You are not allowed to change your stroking enough that you would "lose" your edge, only enough that you stay there. If you are able to make it staying on the edge for 2 minutes, then you may cum for me and feel full pleasure of it. If you cross the edge before the 2 minutes is done, you will immediately remove your hand and let it be a ruined orgasm, and you will not feel the pleasure of this.

I know this will get frustrating, but I think this is a nice amount of motivation along with a good plan for you to start working on this. Of course I like my slut to feel pleasure...but I also want you to learn to love the edge, so I do hope that you can get your mind and body to work together so that we both feel pleasure.

I also want you reporting often about this here.

Good luck my sweet slut!!!

Mistress

Friday, February 6, 2009

Spankings (days 11 & 12)


Mistress,

I missed one day. It was that day when there was no power at morning and then my workday reached inhuman hours. Didn't have a change to do spanking that day.

Day 11 was 44 hits to back of my thighs with wooden spoon. It was nice.

And today (day 12) was 45 to my ass. With riding crop. Trying to find strength that won't leave long lasting marks, but still stings enough.

Sam


Thursday, February 5, 2009

Org Task - Wrapped Up With Pee For Some Kinky Fun

Crossposted from Org.

Miss Marie - Wrapped Up With Pee For Some Kinky Fun

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Miss Marie,

Like you know I got sick after performing this task but I did write notes right after finishing.
But they are just notes so no when I'm writing this I have to make a little different report than normally to help me remember everything.


The Task, Wrapping Up:
Quote:
- From the moment you start this task until your final report is made, you are not allowed to use your toilet for peeing. The first time you pee for me you will use that to make 6 pee cubes. I want you to only make the cubes 1/3 full...not a full size ice cube
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I was using one of those bags you know. First peeing in big glass and then pouring it from glass to that plastic bag. Those cubes were little too big, but hey it's just more pee for you.

Quote:
- When your cubes are frozen you will lube your asshole for me and then insert your plug.
Just a small plug to make things little easier.

Quote:
- Next take your marker and write in nice big letters on your belly "Miss Marie's Slut"
I love that one. Even more because it's not only task when I'm your slut.

Quote:
- Now I want you to masturbate to the edge. You can use any toys you like. Then stop.
Fun. I can do one edge without problem.

Quote:
- ...continue up to your chest. Put 2 pee cubes on the sides of each nipple and then put the other two between your breasts as you wrap yourself up.
Didn't work like you wanted. Cubes just won't stay were you put them. They moved like they had they own will.

First 20 Minutes:

Wrapping was fun. I really liked it. But when it was time to put those cubes there was a little problem. My freezer is very cold, too cold to put cubes from there against skin immediately, so I have to take cubes out and put them on towel to 'warm up' a little. And of course that towel was on floor.
It's impossible to just bend over when you're tightly wrapped. Bending your knees is also almost out of question. But with weird combination of funny looking bending and movements I got that towel from floor and put it on table. Without dropping cubes.

Taking those cubes one by one and putting them under wrap felt nasty. And I could smell them because they were little melted already. And they didn't stay were I put them. No matter how I tried they just slide were they wanted. So I gave up and just leave them were they went. And maybe that was good thing after all. If they had stayed each side of my nipples I couldn't have use nipple clamps without first ripping that wrap. Even now it was hard. I don't know why. When I tested it for you before there was no problem with clamps. Maybe I used more layers of wrap this time.

We talked about that gag thing so I didn't use rope, but small thongs in my mouth. They won't fill my mouth too much and after they are soaked it's either trying to swallow or drool.

And I had scarf to use as blindfold. So next was time to lay down. Right, but where. I had that mattress you can see on pics on floor to be used, but there was no way I could lay down on it. Bloody plastic wrap. And lousy planning from my part. Well maybe I could have use them but first kneeling on so on might have rip that wrap and I didn't want that to happen. So I had to use my bed. Nothing wrong with that, but I couldn't stop thinking about those pee cubes melting and pee dripping on my bed. But there was really no options so there I was. Plug in my ass, pee cubes melting inside plastic wrap, clips on my nipples and scrotum, thong in my mouth, blindfolded and stroking my cock. I'm almost sorry that there was no one to see that. It must have been a real sight.

Oh and those thongs get soaked so few time I just turned my head to side and drooled on my bed.

And then time was up.

Second 20 Minutes:

This was easy part. I had already spanked my ass at morning and it was little sore, so I took it easy. Turn out that I took it too easy, but you have seen me using that spoon before. Quite easy to hit too hard. And it was 200 spanks after all. Well it was fun and didn't take long. Spanking part that is. Next time I know I can hit harder. Rest of the time I just stand there. Not really enjoying. Now that I had nothing to do my mind stayed thinking of pee. I felt like there was pee all over me and maybe there was, but tried to think that most of it is just sweat. Couldn't really succeed of fooling myself.

And more drooling for you. Now that I was standing it was easy. And messy. But hey, what's a little saliva outside wrap, when inside is full of pee.

Third 20 Minutes:

Back to bed. I could smell that pee. I'm sure my whole apartment smelled. Or not. I really don't know how much was just inside my but it was all the same to me.

And cumming. No fucking problem with that. Pee really don't turn me on, but knowing that this task ends when I cum and not knowing when I can cum next time were both great motivators.
And recently I've been fucking horny all the time anyway so after few minutes of stroking I came.
Not really hard, but it was good O. Thank you Miss Marie.

Reporting:

Quote:
- I want your overall thoughts on the task
What can I tell you. Hmm. I felt fucking nasty whole time. I like cubes, but I don't like pee. So it was kinda funny thing. It was fun, but then I remember that those were pee cubes melting. Then it wasn't so much fun any more. Not disgusting, but... ...and in some level it was quite a turn on. To be such a nasty pee slut for you. Doing it for you. Thinking of that really helped.

And one final note to others who might do this. After task, think how and where you remove that wrap. There's pee everywhere inside it. Or maybe it's sweat. Or sweat mixed with pee. But anyways. You don't want to just rip that wrap off in living room and 'splash' pee drops all over things near you.

Miss Marie, thank you for this task. It was experience that, while I might not want to do it again, I like I had.

sam

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Org Task - Red, Sexy Kisses

Crossposted from Org.

Calais - Red, Sexy Kisses

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Calais,

I have never been so nervous before task. First this task is fucking something and then there was those extra instructions I had.

After shower it was time to start. At home. Nail polish. That pinkish red. Miss Marie told me that it will be enough if I paint my thumb nails. And so I did thinking that it would be easier that way than having all the fingers painted. Yeah. It wasn't. Anyways, back to preparations. What else I can do. Hey, I can wear that nice slut necklace I have. And bracelet. And anklet.
Who would notice anything else than that shirt anyways. Good thinking. Except I don't have that shirt on until at the end part of task.

But that I realize only when paying (commuter rail) ticket go look new (for me) shopping mall. Girly bracelet and red thumbnail. It looked so funny that I wished I would have painted all my finger nails.

At store

That was easy part. Mostly. Buying white T-shirt is of course normal and I don't feel uncomfortable buying lipstick or other things like that. Not anymore. I just buy them. Well, paying them was of course little awkward with my nails. Bracelet felt normal at this point. But that young woman at counter was so bored looking that I'm not sure if she even notice anything. Well she had to, but I don't think she cared or was really paying attention. And I didn't really care. I had other things in my mind at that point.

Toilet

Chargeable public toilet. Nervous sam. Mistakes and fun.

First thing I notice inside was that there was that fucking annoying blue light. The one for preventing junkies to find a vein. That made everything look really funny. Second thing I notice that it was toilet for one. Two little rooms. First with mirror and sink. And holder for paper towels.
Second room for toilet seat. And only second room was lockable from inside. Great. Not wanting to take any risks I went straight to 'stall'. And now that printed task instructions would have been handy.

Coat and shirt off. Lipstick, T-shirt and camera ready. And clothespins on nipples until I had orgasmed. (Miss Marie's way to motivate me). And now I found myself having trouble of remember everything and at which order everything should have done. So next I wrote Calais on my skin.
Something felt wrong, so I took a little time to think again.

New try. Lipstick on lips. Kissing shirt. Four times. More lipstick. Kissing. And so on.
Think. Now I got it. Jeans down. I know that you wanted me to drop pants on floor and wear only T-shirt, but that floor didn't look clean or dry (winter, snow and all) enough for that. I hope you don't be too disappointed. T-shirt on. Wait. Adjust those clothespins so they won't stick straight away from your chest. Write Calais again. This time on T-shirt. Sit. Start stroking. And hey. This time I managed to get orgasm. Not very strong one. Too nervous for that. But good one. Cleaning and out.
Fucking fast. Whole time there was no way for me to know if someone else was waiting they turn to use toilet. Next time I have to use bigger than one person toilet.

Kisses for everyone

I had coat on when I came out from toilet so I didn't count that to time. I wanted coffee so next stop was cafe. Open to people walking inside mall see to tables. Coat off and sitting to table. Drinking coffee and trying to act natural. But now I got stares. A lot of stares. So much for enjoying my coffee. I drink it fast and took my things. Walking around mall. Being only one NOT wearing coat. Great. And now that I had only T-shirt that necklace with "Miss Marie's Sexy Slut" tag was clearly visible too. I doubt that anyone could read that text, but still. And that mall is so small. And ten minutes goes so slowly. But time was up finally and I put my coat back on and left. I don't think I will go back there for little while. Who am I kidding. I know I will stay away.

Trip to home was easy. And it didn't feel like part of task anymore. And same goes now. Writing this with only T-shirt on feels like just writing report. It's probably the relief I felt after being able to leave that shopping mall that makes me feel that task ended there.

Now that was confusing, humiliating and fun trip. And next time when I'm tasking outside home I have to remember to print task to paper and take it with me.

Thank you for this fun Calais.

sam

P.S. That bluish picture and short video is taken at that public toilet. Others at home.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Spanking (day 10)

Mistress,

Balls again. 53 hits. I think I actually hit few more than 53. It's hard to count when having fun ;) And they are still sore from last night. Oh well, at least this woke me up.
And made me so fucking horny. I almost came while spanking second set of ten. Without other touch than hits with spoon. After that I had to be even more careful with stroking.

And now slut with sore balls is going to work. Trust me, they will ache whole day for you. From pain and from need to cum for you.

sam

Spanking (day 9)

Mistress,

44 to balls. For you.
And as you can see I'm starting to like this. Not very much, but it's a start.

Thank you for letting me spank my balls for you Mistress.

sam

Last rule 17 picture


Mistress,

This one is like you wanted. Mask and panties party in mouth covering lower part of my face.
Picture I took last week was, and still is, missing so I have to take new today. Using same panties so I don't think it's very big deal.

How do you keep your pictures organized? I need help with that.

sam

Spankings (days 6,7 & 8)

Mistress,

Day 6 was 39 spanks to bottom of my feet. Still trying to find right amount of force to use.
Feet hurt hour after spanking, but only light pain.

Day 7 was 48 to ass. Using just hands to spank. Scary because there was still task to do later that day and there was 200 spanks in 20 minutes to ass in that task.

After day 7 I got sick. Nothing serious, just common cold, but having fever and other symptoms prevented me to anything. That why there's hasn't been any updates. Starting to feel well again, so if there's no setbacks things are going to continue like they were before getting ill.














Day 8 was yesterday. 49 using wooden spoon on my inner thighs. Trying to avoid long lasting
marks. Not very painful, but made them sore.

sam.